When I was on my (way too long) blogging hiatus, I started (and even finished) several posts. And they are sitting there in my drafts just wasting away. So here's a snapshot from almost a year ago!
Rantings of a tired (mommy) blogger
Being pregnant and parenting a toddler is a doozy my friends. One that has kept me away from this space for a long long time. I truly miss it. I really miss getting my thoughts out of my head and having an adult (ish) processing space. I mean in general I miss being an adult most of the time.
My days are consumed by toddler toast and necklaces and baby dolls and snot and diaper changes. And then they are consumed by graduate students (adult toddlers?). And after that if I have anything left it goes to the wife and the dog. And the friends.
And staying awake pastthese days is really challenging. But I feel like I'm really missing out on recording this pregnancy and what is going on with our family (since God knows it ain't getting recorded anywhere else...the 2 pages of baby girls baby book that are filled out can attest to that!)
Weirdly not having time to find pictures really holds me back - like it's not a real post if I don't put pictures? So I think I'm just going to start posting my word babble and then if I can finally get some pictures in here again that will just be an extra bonus.
So here's what's going on these days:
-Our daughter turned 2 years old.
-She is an amazon. She is nearly in 4T clothes. She's in the 99th percentile for height and the 90-something for weight (very proportional) She is just enormous!
-98% of the time she is an absolutely joy. Her littler personality is just exploding. She is super duper talkative, she has a lot of ideas and thoughts, and she loves to play with baby dolls and animals and absolutely ADORES going to the park. (She asks EVERY SINGLE DAY to go!)
- I am nearly 25 wks pregnant. How that happened I have no idea. It honestly took me until almost 20wks to feel more secure and not fearful. Infertility PTSD is a thing.
- This kid, who's sex will again be a surprise, is kicking and rolling like crazy. It is the coolest and most surreal feeling ever.
-I'm exhausted all the time - have I mentioned that recently?
-I'm also blowing up like a balloon. I was so ick in the beginning that apparently once I started feeling better I went insane. So I'm trying to reign it in and keep exercising. While simultaneously not going to the crazy insane worrying about everything I put in my mouth place. It's a balance.
-The election and political climate threw me into a real emotional tailspin. I still feel very uncentered and scared most of the time. Especially thinking about the world we've created for my daughter and this babe inside of me. What will things look like in June? I'm so scared that SP won't have legal access to this kid. And I'm super fearful that we will lose the rights we worked so hard to gain...
-That being said - I have to shut it all off sometimes because honestly it's too much. Some days all I can focus on is trying to help mold a kind child - in hopes that the work we do at home will make a difference in this world. That and just trying to muster every bit of kindness and love I can give to those around me.
-The dog is still nuts. She's 6 years old and still insanely energetic. She also has decided she loves the smell and taste of crayons. Needless to say her poop is now orange...
-Our house is a hot mess most of the time (at least in terms of my anal standards). We are paying the house keeper to come 2x a month these days and it still probably the best money I've ever spent. I love her in an awkward slightly too much way.
-We're getting ready for a (much needed) get away down south soon. We are going to leave baby girl with the grandparents and escape just the 2 of us for a few days. I seriously can't wait. I just want to stare at the ocean and not be obligated to be anywhere at any specific time. A massage wouldn't be out of the question either ;)
I think that's it for the moment. More to come. Hopefully one of these days it won't be in bullet form - but not promises.
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