What I liked about Today…the Yesterday Version

Yesterday I had a little breakdown.  My workdays have been out of control lately.  It’s to be expected around this time of year.  My job is very flexible 6 months out of the year and then 6 months out of the year it’s incredibly intense and all consuming.  Which has its benefits…and its downfalls.

I woke up grumpy yesterday.

And I hate that.  When it feels like the destiny for my day is already set.  So I grumped around until SP couldn’t take it anymore and made me talk to her and cry about how I have no life and I don’t do anything and  nothing is turning out the way I though it would and and and (everything is very dramatic once you start to spiral into grumpville…have you ever noticed that?  how its all ALWAYS and NOTHING and EVERYTHING and ALL THE TIME)

And then I felt better. 

Isn’t it crazy how just letting it all out and aired somehow in and of itself makes it better.  SP did tell me that I need to stop bringing my work home every night (she and I both know that some nights I have to but every  night and every day is really excessive)

So yesterday I didn’t bring my work home.

SP has been helping me so I don't go totally CRAZY

 

And I loved on my SP and my puppy.  Because the furry puppy she is always innocent and happy and just wants to love.  And my SP…she’s just the best thing there is.  A smile and a hug and a reassurance that everything will be ok.  And it is.  I’m so lucky.

And then she took me to Chipotle and the drive-in.

Wednesday is not a popular drive-in night...

 And that was the best remedy for a grumpy day ever!

Oh Heyyy Valentine!

Hey you guys did you know its valentine’s day?

How could you not?!  If you know me you know I don’t love valentine’s day.  But this year Valentine’s day and I sort of made some peace.  Because you know what, who cares?!  Love is good.  This one I know to be true.

So today I wore something with pink on it and a heart necklace.  Like the big JOINER that I am.  I even made valentine’s day cookies.  Because really.  COOKIES you guys.  Why would I not?  I make cookies because it’s Wednesday.  So I might as well make cookies because it’s valentine’s day.  And then I can give some away and everybody wins!

So am I all into this valentine’s day nonsense now you ask?  I don’t know.  When SP asked what I wanted to do for valentine’s day I told her I wanted chipotle or a salad.  Because I mean nothing says romance like a salad right?!  Take from that what you will…

So maybe you don’t have an SP right now.  Or maybe you like being single except on valentine’s day. Well guess what?  It doesn’t matter.  Somebody loves you.  So go hug them.  And then eat a cookie.  Because that’s what valentine’s day is REALLY about.   

Cookies and Love.

 Yeah I made Cookie Bags and brought them to work.  Because I'm 12 and I want people to like me.  And because really... I like Cookies...

We got Kori a valentine's day present.  Before and After.  

This was probably over the span of 32 seconds.  Good job Crazy!

Oh those FACES!  Love!

 

Little Lights

After somebody loses their little boy it doesn't really seem right to write about anything else.  It doesn't ever seem fair to me that the world keeps on turning after the death of a loved one.  It seems that everyone should be affected by the giant black hole you are in...but the truth of the matter is, the light keeps shining, the world keeps turning.  And I actually think that is the best testament we give to our loved ones who leave this earth - we keep living.  We keep enjoying the glories of this earth.

So here is the light in my life lately:

• The sun is out every day.  It is in affect the greatest mood stabilizer known to man kind.  I can't even recount to you the joy that wells up inside of me when I see the sun.  I'm changing religions immediately to become a sun worshiper.
• Stupid exercising.  Hate it.  Love it at the same time.  It definitely makes me feel better in the end.  But at the beginning its pretty terrible.  That being said, this morning I found my love of the rowing machine.
• Valentines day cookies.  Really do I need to say anything about this?  Yum.
• My girls.  Seriously.  I have the best little family there ever was. 
• These 2 songs.  On repeat.  All.day.long.
• The Neighbourhood - Sweater Weather 
• Skylar Grey - C'mon Let Me Ride
• Downton Abbey.  I mean really.  If you haven't jumped on this bandwagon, sad for you because this show, while very British (LOVE) is probably the best thing on tv these days.  (or the internet if you don't in fact have a TV)  The clothes, the house, the drama.  Swoon.  Its taking all my self control to not watch ALL of them in one horrible sweat pant clad go.
• Hershey kisses.  Seriously.  My chocolate desires have been out of control.  It is taking all of my self control to not face plant directly into a cake this week.  So a few hershey kisses a day ain't all that bad.  Right?  RIGHT?!

Sunlight and the TIN MAN!  Love!

 

You know what else makes me happy?  A flight of BEER!

This is NOT Downton Abbey.  But it still looks cool.  And SUN!

My Loves!

  Aww YEAH!

 

This weekend is a long weekend.  And SP and I are doing something special.  And I’m not telling anybody about it because I don’t want to hear about what I should do or who I should see etc.  I just want to take a break.  And that’s just what I’m going to do.

That and find some gosh darn girl scout cookies (why are they hiding from me?!)

Love and light and besos my friends!

One Little Light in a Big World. One More Angel.

Its no surprise to you all that I read a lot of blogs.  And especially now that SP and I are planning on starting a family my reading of lesbian mommy blogs has been out of control.  I don’t know any of these women or their children but I’ve followed their stories and their trials and their triumphs as they succeed in bringing their dreams to this world.

But tonight my heart is incredibly heavy for a child and a family that I never met. 

Today these women lost their child to cancer.

And to this big world it may mean nothing.  But to them it means the world.  I can’t conceive of the crushing weight of losing a child.  It’s unbearable to even imagine. 

And so tonight.  I am sending all of my love and light and everything I have in my heart to these women.  Who today lost their world. 

And this big world lost one little light today.

But we gained one more angel.

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Mini miracles (aka the glories of a clean house)

Sunday was sort of a miraculous day in the Dranderson house.  First of all I knew it was going to be a crazy day when I woke up all groggy and awkward and looked at the clock and saw that it was 8:00am.  EIGHT AM PEOPLE.  You don’t even know what that means to me.  I am a chronic under sleeper.  I can not sleep in.  I can not nap.  In fact I generally don’t sleep very much.   Which is very upsetting really.  Its not that I don’t want to sleep.  Trust me I do.  I want to sleep.  SO MUCH.  But it just isn’t always in the cards for me.  So you can imagine my surprise when the clock said 8am instead of 6am.    Glorious sleep-age.

And then something even more miraculous happened.   A little known fact – I’m sort of a neat freak.  And I’ve been dying for the whole apartment to be clean at the same time.  Its like we clean and clean but it never is all clean at the same time.  So when SP woke up (she is a good sleeper – damn her) I boldly told her – “today is the day.”   And then it happened.  The whole apartment was clean at the same time.  All the stacks of crappy papers and recycling that needed to be taken out and random flotsam and jetsam was put into a proper place.  The kitchen was descuzzed.  Even the spare room (aka the giant closet) is cleaned.  It. Is. Miraculous. 

You guys I can’t even describe to you the calm that it brings to my OCD soul.  This morning when I woke up and every surface was clean and there wasn’t a bunch of junk every where I looked.  It was love people. 

And then I watched an entire football game.  I know for most of you that’s not all that novel or exciting.  But the football watching is generally not for me.  I find it…let’s just be honest, BORING.  The game is so stinkin slow.  1 min takes approximately 25mins to progress.  There are WAY too many players, I mean really people.  But I digress.  The point is that football watching is not generally my cup of tea.  But I sucked it up and I watched the entire SuperBowl in real time with SP and my bestie and I really didn’t complain.  I did read a magazine though.  So maybe I can’t really say I watched the whole game, I’m not sure…I’m going to count it.

 Gooby Superbowl Watching Peeps

The spread! YUMS

I'm bored, take a picture with me!

All in all.  Crazy crazy Sunday.  And so lovely as well.  We’ve had a few lazy weekends and its so odd.  Not to be busy every second.  It’s the weirdest feeling having these free weekends that aren’t planned to the max.  I like it.  However it does make me sort of antsy.   I’m used to having such a crazy schedule…I’m not really sure what to do with all this time.  Any suggestions?

Here's how we filled up Saturday:  And then I was sore.  And realized I'm REAL OLD!

XOXO

Sarah